because maybe it fucking sucks and i didn't want to drag people i like into it?
but they're going to make me keep doing this shit until i hit 5 in one day and begging strangers to let me put my hands in their pants is really getting old so i've decided to fold on the whole noble try and run it solo thing
[ she wants to bite back that the people he likes would gladly help him through a shitty situation, but immediately remembers how she'd refused help in the cage, up until he'd come to get her out of it, and how upset he'd been that she was there. she doesn't really have a leg to stand on at the moment when it comes to this kind of behavior. ]
i'll be over as soon as i can. i might be able to get out early. did they say five people or five times?
( it's not that he didn't think they would help, it's that Daniel didn't think they should have to. he knew what he was doing and he put himself in this mess. it's not some valiant punishment for doing something noble, he was fucking around and he found out. )
max i assure you there is no rush because i have to be there all day. i am sure you can fit it in sometime even with 25 jobs five people
yeah, but they apparently have you on a 9-5 schedule. but you're in luck, i'm only working the one tomorrow. i don't suppose i could get away with finding a wig, wearing a different jacket, and coming back around an hour later.
more like sunrise to sunset this is the earliest i've had to wake up in weeks i doubt it, they track it with our devices. but i appreciate your spy drama ingenuity
jesus, are they dragging you out of bed every morning to make sure you get there on time? they'd be so happy to hear that not all of my training went to waste.
no. well, i don't know, they haven't had to you forget how talented i am at doing what i'm told even if it's fucked up
fuck them but at least you can do whatever you want with all the shit they made you learn, huh? that said, you can skip the disguise, unless you're really feeling creative
[ she hadn't, but reading that makes her angrier on his behalf. maybe he'd broken a rule, but that rule feels like something they only enforce when they want to remind them that they have the power, and she's never seen a punishment that was warranted for it. ]
little harder to here. although that is how i ended up getting clothes outside of the jumpsuit they brought me here in before i signed with you and was allowed to shop on my own. i don't know where i'd get a wig, but i've got an outfit in mind.
if you really want a wig i'll get you one safe to say i'll owe you after this i feel like i should mention i've got a guard that likes to watch so, consider what you want to wear carefully
yes, i'll owe you. because i feel like shit expecting you to come up here so some creep can watch you get off because i got caught with my hand in the cookie jar. you're not talking me out of this one
our creepy overlords gave me a heated booth, so there's that
i get that telling you you don't have to feel like shit about needing my help with this isn't going to help you not feel like shit about it, but you don't. i want to help. if it makes you feel better about it we can call it even for you caring enough to come down here to get my ass out of the cage.
i guess you can't be expected to do much if you're too cold. [ would it be inappropriate of her to make a joke about shrinkage? ]
you're right and it doesn't. i wish i didn't have to ask, but i also don't have it in me to roll the dice and hope i can get through it on my own tomorrow after bombing it today and it doesn't make me feel better, actually. i have given up on "feeling better" about this, no offense
i'm sure they don't give a shit if the cold makes things miserable, i suspect that's rather the point
it isn't really about getting the job done, max, it's about making sure people hate the experience enough they won't try it again. so far so good on that front
( which is miserable in a new sort of way, because it's such a stupid rule and Daniel would like to be able to stare the city in the eye and refuse to fold on such an arbitrary restriction. but he can't, because imagining Yelena or Gwen in his place makes him feel a thousand times worse than being in it himself. )
i'm a real peach tonight, huh? fuck. i'm gonna quit while i'm ahead. get some sleep or something. but if you feel up to it, then i'll see you tomorrow obviously you aren't required to go through with this because you like me and you want to help i have to say it even though i know you're going to do it anyway
[ which makes sense, even if the rule doesn't. it's just not something she's had to think about because of what her position is. she'd just known it was unfair, which was enough reason to make her hate it, but if she were in his position she'd feel the same way. ]
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but they're going to make me keep doing this shit until i hit 5 in one day and begging strangers to let me put my hands in their pants is really getting old so i've decided to fold on the whole noble try and run it solo thing
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i'll be over as soon as i can. i might be able to get out early.
did they say five people or five times?
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max i assure you there is no rush because i have to be there all day. i am sure you can fit it in sometime even with 25 jobs
five people
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i don't suppose i could get away with finding a wig, wearing a different jacket, and coming back around an hour later.
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i doubt it, they track it with our devices. but i appreciate your spy drama ingenuity
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they'd be so happy to hear that not all of my training went to waste.
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well, i don't know, they haven't had to
you forget how talented i am at doing what i'm told even if it's fucked up
fuck them but at least you can do whatever you want with all the shit they made you learn, huh?
that said, you can skip the disguise, unless you're really feeling creative
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little harder to here. although that is how i ended up getting clothes outside of the jumpsuit they brought me here in before i signed with you and was allowed to shop on my own.
i don't know where i'd get a wig, but i've got an outfit in mind.
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i feel like i should mention i've got a guard that likes to watch so, consider what you want to wear carefully
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[ of course he does. god, she hates the guards up there. ]
i was planning for easy access, but good to know.
you got anything to keep warm while you're stuck out there?
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our creepy overlords gave me a heated booth, so there's that
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if it makes you feel better about it we can call it even for you caring enough to come down here to get my ass out of the cage.
i guess you can't be expected to do much if you're too cold. [ would it be inappropriate of her to make a joke about shrinkage? ]
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and it doesn't make me feel better, actually. i have given up on "feeling better" about this, no offense
i'm sure they don't give a shit if the cold makes things miserable, i suspect that's rather the point
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i'm sorryokay.then i don't know, i'll think of something later. you don't owe me an apology, though.
i figured they'd still want you to get the job done but i could also see them pleased about you not getting it done so they can prolong it.
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( which is miserable in a new sort of way, because it's such a stupid rule and Daniel would like to be able to stare the city in the eye and refuse to fold on such an arbitrary restriction. but he can't, because imagining Yelena or Gwen in his place makes him feel a thousand times worse than being in it himself. )
i'm a real peach tonight, huh? fuck.
i'm gonna quit while i'm ahead. get some sleep or something. but if you feel up to it, then i'll see you tomorrow
obviously you aren't required to go through with this because you like me and you want to help
i have to say it even though i know you're going to do it anyway
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of course i am.
i'll see you tomorrow.
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( the last thing he sends is exactly where they'll have him stationed in the morning. )